you used to be aslan

So is it normal to mellow as we age or is that just an excuse?

i have been pondering this thought whilst negotiating the rain sodden motorway drive home from the UCA National Youthworkers Inservice. As always the best of the event was catching up with people...

...and then the shocker comment of the week "wow we really have domesticated you...you used to be Aslan"...and i thought i was learning to discern the battles that could be usefully fought.

and the deeper seated fear, does travelling the modernist linear pathways of worship on a weekly basis make you less able to contemplate a more organic experience? does doing it "by the book" so to speak actually kill your creativity...is that the lack of aslan in my life? cos everyone knows you can't swim in the river without changing the water and yourself...there is no neutral observer position in leading worship

(and i miss the best part of the week - worship on friday because of that domestication which seems to be turning out to be all for nought)