take me out and shoot me

if ever i get to the stage where all that matters is the number of women at ladies fellowship take me out and shoot me.

i've been at a meeting where all that could be reported on was the numbers of women (very small) at the monthly fellowship. no sense of direction, no mention of others in the church. i really don't know how to change this...how did it get like this, how is that understanding of God been so distorted, what does leadership look like in this context. i sat there wanting to scream and just wanting to say if you want to know what I really think - I think we should stop all this right now and appoint a chaplian and stop calling it church...which leads us back to the missional question of what is church

and we're trapped in a situation that says the "congregation" is the final arbitor but making such incredible assumptions about the state of said congregation - and what recourse do we have when it really isn't a congregation any more....actually that'd be interesting - could we apply the same tests to these congregations to continue as we apply to those seeking to become congregations??

aghh just a rant really - just as well i've got marking to keep me insane